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[06 Jun 2006|11:31pm] |
Hello readers...first i would like to start off with a katie shout out...YO YO YO KATIE!!!!!!!! Ok...let's get to business...fuck the small talk. Friday i went to sean's grandmother's wake with caroline...i wish the best of luck to sean and his family as well as anyone that knew his grandmother in coping with their loss and let her rest in peace. After that we hit up the mall where caroline bought 5 pairs of underwear and 7 pairs of sunglasses as i followed her around like a puppy dog...it was all worth it. Saturday night...too fuckin awesome. I picked up emily, richie, and kevin paradise and went to the show at the moose lodge...fuckin bomb. Everyone was there and the bands were fucking dank. Smart Bombs and Apple Pie were sick and it was awesome to see them after only experiencing their demo. Del Monte Raid was unbelieveable and i got a song dedication on the version of Operation Ivy's Nothing In Mind...i was fuckin psyched!!! Everyone was singing along, alex was cocked, and ryan looked like a punk rock serial killer with his new mohawk and green suspenders. The Flawed were also unbelievable...like usual and the crowd participation was fuckin insane!!!!!!! I was digging it!!! I left the show with a messed up jaw, a pain in my back after a not so good somersault and a ringing in my ears. Sunday was just another sunday of lacrosse practice and homework...although the highlight of my night was dinner at caroline's with her, her mother, and her grandmother...fuckin a kid!!! Alright can't wait for school to be ova...im fuckin dying. -Keep the faith
Alright...i believe today was the day richie shipped out to boot...i will miss that fuckin bastard and i wish him luck
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[29 May 2006|05:18pm] |
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Fuckin a...once again making my monthly live journal entry...one that seems to occur less and less as time wears on...perhaps the lack of popularity i seem to feel towards it? Anyways fuck it. So this weekend...fuckin a. Friday was spent with the wife...aka...caroline...my bittie. We ended up going to borders and driving around and then sitting on my porch talkin while eating sunflower seeds. Saturday was spent with richie and kevin enjoying the north attleboro heat. That night followed a party with a bunch of random feehan people from mansfield and attleboro i havent seen in forever as well as a ripped shirt and random inexplicable scrapes. Yesterday was apllying for jobs and then ending up at katelyn's house with her, rj, shane, craig, and sean. So today i had an interview at target...fuckin a...and after being interviewed by two people and a drug test in cumberland...i hope i got that fuckin job...kinda. So yeah...fuckin a...i hate school...i hate lacrosse...and i can't wait till i win the lottery and its nothing but easy money and expensive booze. -Keep the faith
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[26 Mar 2006|09:05pm] |
I feel like shit. I think my lack of sleep mixed with caffeine is starting to slowly kick the shit out of me. Well yeah its desperate times...desperate times indeed. Fuck everything, and fuck everyone man...i got nothing. I guess this update is partially for me...i need to get some shit off my chest and partially for katie...i guess she actually reads this piece...makes me wonder how many people actually do. So once again everyone is drifting, well not everyone, but definitely a good amount of people are no longer what they once were or maybe what i once saw them as. Who fuckin knows. Its amazing when the shit hits the fan and for some reason i still see the same few people standing there right fuckin next to me. They know who they are because ive told them on many occasions, whether its random online conversations on sunday nights, or random cell phone calls lasting till early in the morning...hell i probably even told them when i was drunk with an absurb form of slurred English. As Minor Threat's Salad Days blares on my speakers...kinda makes me sad(der)...fuck that shit. I guess one thing is for sure...everything seems a little better in katie's living room haha...kev can second this statement. The band is no more...what once seemed like a hopeful project has slowly fallen apart into nothing...maybe next time?
I guess its the good times that u live for...that little break that puts a smile on ur face...like last night playin pool with kev, katie, nikki, and josh, and then goin to burger king and then back to katie's. I dont no...i guess everythin will work itself out kinda...fuckin a.
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[14 Mar 2006|07:05pm] |
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Yet another tuesday, the weeks sure do fly by when school is raping you in the ass. Anyways...life is good and i'm feelin alright. I haven't really been a huge participator in the whole livejournal community as much as i have been in the past couple of years. Is it fading? Seems like everyone used to have one of these pieces but now barely anyone does...yes I too have become a myspace whore, putting up my best pictures so over age men can drool over me while the pull their pud and try to meet me alone in a private spot...sweet. Anyways...i live for the freedom that i can afford on the weekends and thats about it. I don't mind the people in my school as much as i mind the work and the constant thought of my future staring me right in the eyes...yeah fuck that shit kid. I hope everyone has a safe and fun St. Patrick's Day...mad bitches...gettin crunk...fuckin a. I love my girl...shout out to her. My friends are cool. My band is making progress...show on April 15th at the Moose Club...demo coming out soon...split with DelMonte Raid...punk and shit? -Keep the faith
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[23 Feb 2006|11:52pm] |
So there we are...in my mom's mini van...me ryan shane and craig...we pull up to nigels house and make the call. We leave the van door open. Nigel is running with his bass in his hand...hops in the van and we drive away as fast as possible. Its all about the band now...Nigel had gotten grounded but he decided to run away so he could record with us. Its a great fuckin night lemme tell u. We picked up alex and now we have a full car and we go to record for a few hours and then we drive around...go to heathers...get some food. I realize how fuckin awesome my band and my friends are...and its all alright. Fuckin a kid...fuckin a...i love my girl...i love everything...i love kidnapping my bass player...i love masterbating...i love porn...fuckin a. So pass that fourty and that cowboy killer and the rest is fuckin history cunts. -Keep the faith
P.S. Caroline Balerstedt please come home...i miss u dearly
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[02 Feb 2006|06:38pm] |
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YO YO YO!!!! So everyone...please go fuck yourselves...new classes have officially commenced at the beginning of the week and well...fuck my ass please??? I hate school now more than i ever have and i dont see my hate changing. Anyways last weekend was fuckin bomb...jus spent it chillin with my friends and my girl...that's all i need man!!! So basically friday is four months with me and chick...ummm fuckin a????? This has been the best four months i eva spent with a girl in my life and here is to four months more!!! So anyways i bought a new amp and nigel is gettin a bass amp and shane is gettin a pa...sooooo...fuckin a kid????? All we need is some fuckin shows. Today we had practice and we were all in our underwear playin and craig and chris were in their underwear too...and then ryan and shane' gfs came down and it was fuckin hilarious to say the least. Fuckin a kid...get busy livin or get busy dyin motha fuckas. -Keep the faith
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[22 Jan 2006|10:32pm] |
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We gather here today to mourne the loss of two of the best things in my life. These things you couldn't touch, you experienced, they were...relationships. Last year my love life was doing worse than anyone else i knew...truthfully it was kicking the shit out of me. But i guess i never lost faith because i always had two relationships that seemed to be so strong and so fuckin...cool...that i knew there was hope. The first one was my sister and her boyfriend. For the last two years they were the strongest couple i know...i mean they spent every waking moment together...i never saw them fight and to see Ben's red Mustang in the driveway no matter waht time of the day was it was...was normal. At every family function him and my sister would be there together cuddling or holding hands looking perpetually happy like the only thing they needed in their lives was eachother. More than two years that lasted never once faltering until graduation. After graduation my sister went down to her awesome fuckin school to be the best she could be blah blah blah and her boyfriend did school up here. I'm not gonna lie the day they parted i almost cried...i wanted to fuckin die. I had faith though...all those miles couldn't keep the two people who i thought loved eachother and would surely be together forever apart. Well now one semester after they both went to college...it's all gone to hell...when i say hell i mean hell. I'm gonna miss it i swear to god i will...they gave me fuckin faith. The next was...well mostly everyone who reads this piece knows em...so i dont think its neccessary to even mention their names. Well anyways...like i was sayin my love life sucked...but theirs was...fuckin great. Everytime i got sad cuz my girlfriend didn't feel it neccessary to see me or call me...or go out with me...i had them. Ive spent more friday nights playing the third wheel with them than i can count. Sure i tried my hardest to be miserable...sure i was jealous...but i liked bein there. Katie's home was...kinda home. I coulda always talk to her mom about my problems like she was my bestfriend...and she always made me feel better cuz she was always on my side. Everytime i got more miserable...i could jus grab another diet non-caffeine coke out of katies fridge...and everythin would seem to be alright. Well it's officially over...the world has turned upside down...those two perfect relationships are gone...done...my faith in the world...vanished and now...i have a good love life? What the fuck? I'm happier than ive ever been with caroline and i love her to death...it jus scares me that the two best relationships that made me believe in this fuckin world...as well as love are gone...never to put a smile on my face again...except when i reflect on the memories. So ladies and gentlemen please place ur roses on the metaphorical caskets and let your tears stream because six feet underground is a long ways...especially when its dead.
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[22 Jan 2006|02:47pm] |
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Yet another entry my feathered friends...shits goin good nowadays. Friday i finally got to see my friends again...i slept ova shanes and sean and ryan were with us...it was a good time. The next morning we went out to breakfast and shit...sean tried to rape me. Ummm the next day i did school shit until the night time and i went to the Foxborough battle of the bands. Unfortunately battle of the bands fuckin blow and after a chick who sounded like a dude playin an acoustic guitar and another band that wasn't that impressive me and caroline split. We hit up Primo's and we shared a steak and cheese sub...can u say immaculate? Afta that we drove around for a little bit and then we ended up jus chillin in my car for about 3 hours. Sittin in the car with a person for three hours usually sucks. But with caroline it was actually a wicked fuckin cool night...and it made me even happier that she is mine. So anyways...life liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Ummm finals next week and i think i might jus fuckin die. I hate school and i hate tests and worst of all i hate studying for them...fuck that shit man. Good luck to everyone who will be taking tests this week and if u dont make it...I'll see you in hell. -Keep the faith
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[11 Jan 2006|11:06pm] |
"And everything is changing i guess im goin crazy cuz i dont remember times like these"
The Flawed on the song lonely streets
You ever feel like wicked shitty for some odd reason but u just cant seem to put ur finger on why? That's kinda whats goin on. I dont no...shit just doesnt feel right. I'm happy in some aspects...like caroline...that girl has literally made me 200 percent more happy just because of who she is. It's the best fuckin feeling to know that u got a girlfriend who is there anytime u wanna talk to her and loves u unconditionally...i guess ive never had that before and now its the best. But i guess im feeling lonely again...i dont no why. Maybe its because my insecurity and parannoya and whateva shit i got goin on in my head is fuckin with me...who knows. Reading some of my past entries...ive definitely been through worse...like last february and this summer...but then reading some other entries its like...damn where did it all go? Why the fuck did it change? Some friends are jus difficult to hold onto and the minute i think they are slippin away i start gettin sad and parannoyed and jus fuckin shitty. I guess ill never know. I miss the simpler days when i wasnt fuckin worried so much about everythin and everythin was jus...chill. Thanks to everyone who has stood with me all these years...especially kev and katie. So to all my friends ill see you later...whether it be us chillin on earth or in the after life...fuck it man.
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[05 Jan 2006|03:05pm] |
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Its been a while since the last entry and shit is lookin good for me. Christmas vacation was pretty cool all around...got crunk a couple times...chilled with my friends...and of course me lovely girlfriend. Big news...i now have a nice new trendy myspace...go to www.myspace.com/tommymdean to see it and all its greatness. Add me...or make fun of me for having one...eitha way sounds great to me. So that's fuckin life. Luckily i wont be attending the hell that we refer to as school on friday cuz im leaving to vermont tonight with matt, paul, and eddie...so we can go snowboarding. So its all good...i hope everyone had a wonderful christmas and a fuckin awesome new years...fuckin a. So that's life...leave a comment or something??? -Keep the faith
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[19 Dec 2005|03:35pm] |
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Tragedy has once again struck Tommy Dean...what the fuck. I was driving to school and i had too much speed goin around a turn and next thing i no i hit some ice and i cant stop. Pretty soon my car goes over an island and nails a fuckin street sign...what the fuck. Right before school and everything...what a shitty day. My car was stuck and i had to call the cops and my car had to be towed...it was pretty fuckin ridiculous. My sista came home from college and she needs a car so i had to rent her one...with my money. I dont no exactly whats wrong wtih me except i keep fuckin up before christmas (last year coming home drunk and puking all over my room the first day of vacation...two nights before christmas). Worst of all i got all the school pressures building up...doing shitty on the PSATS...finals comin up and my lack of organization is gonna fuckin rape me. So what the fuck. At least i got the sweetest girl and the best friends...and a sick new band...of course my money for the amp will be going towards my car and the rental car. I hate you all. -keep the faith So here are a few pics that kinda make me happy...enjoy?
Katie and her awesome mother Ladonna...good friends who have always been there...no matter what my lack of clothing was (see me in my underwear at katies in previous entries)
  
Caroline!!! CUTE PURPLE EYES ZACH!!! A-town SKATES!!! Me and Shaney Boy!!!!!!!!!!!
KEV AND SHANE...two of my best friends
Me singing on stage with the Flawed...one of my favorite local punk bands...FUCKIN A
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[11 Dec 2005|08:13pm] |
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So...three day weekend...fuckin a kid. Friday kinda sucked until chick came ova and we chilled and made the dankest ginger bread house eva!!! Afta that shaney boy came ova...and we chilled and worked on songs and stuff for the band. Afta that the next morning it was off to a-town. We went to bliss brothers and got coffee and shit and then did some otha places. We met up with ryan and made him walk with us. That night i worked and then off to Caroline's house to help her pack her stuff...and stuff. Today we had a lax game and we won like 30 to 3!!!! Afta that me and chick went to the mall and i made her a build a bear. It's name is gary and i bought a leather jacket and chuck's for it!!! Just in case noone noticed...I LOVE CAROLINE BALLERSTEDT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So fuckin a...punk rock and shit. -Keep the faith
She was jus sittin there and i was like...damn she looks really cute...so i had to take this picture.
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[05 Dec 2005|04:13pm] |
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punk? Anyways...well life is fuckin immaculate...no doubt kid. This weekend was well...fuckin sweet. Friday it was off to A-town for band practice. Afta that i was chillin with Ryan and Sean and Shaney Boy and Nigel and shit. That night i did the play...i was the snow guy. The next day peanut went with me and my parents to pick out a christmas tree!!! Afta that we all went to Pizza and then we went to the school to do the play...Caroline is the balls at doin lights...she makes beautiful sunsets. Sunday it was lacrosse...once again there was a fight but this time i wasn't in it...at first. I ended up jumpin on the kids back and puttin him in a head lock...third man in. Afta that i went to Shaney Boy's...and got we rocked the cappuchinos at Cumbys and we had dinner with his rents and jus chilled and shit..watched the Darkbuster DVD. GOOD TIMES. Tomorrow its eitha gonna be a snow day or a field trip to Prison and then Papa Ginos...whoohoo. So fuckin a kid...punk rock. -keep the faith
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[27 Nov 2005|09:12pm] |
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Fuckin a man...sunday? So what was my vacation like u wanna no? Well shit man wednesday i went to A-town and jammed with Ryan, Nigel, and Shaney Boy. We then chilled at the park with zach and jeff and kev. Thanksgiving was fuckin immaculate cuz my wonder girl friend came ova for like the whole thing cuz her mom postponed thanksgiving at her house!!! Lata that night kev sleptova...it was a good time. The next night i slept ova shane's with craig and the next day we had band practice at Ryan's house. Afta that i chilled with Caroline and that night i went to the fuckin Flawed show...and let me tell u...it was the fuckin sickest show ive been to in a long time...i even got to go up on stage and sing!!!!!!!!!!! PUNK ROCK MOTHA FUCKAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -keep the faith
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[21 Nov 2005|07:15pm] |
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Hey kids...yet another entry...whoohoo. Well this weekend was aite. Friday had the improv show and once again chick came...and went out to friendly's afterwards with tor and laura and laura's boyfriend jordan...fuckin a. Ummm tori took pics...cuz that's what she does i guess. Saturday i went to the grandparents...sunday i came home went to the lacrosse game and got kicked out...fuckin a. Lata on that night i went ova caroline's...it was a great fuckin time like usual. Anyways...punk rock and shit. Today i stayed afta and helped build the set for the play...power tools fuckin rock. Afta i walked caroline home and my sista picked me up. Can't wait for this saturday. The Flawed are playin jarrods and so are the rowdy ones...and alex's band nothin in mind...fuckin punk rock. Caroline is goin too!!! Fuckin a kid. Happy thanksgivin and shit...caroline might be comin of for dessert and so might kevin!!!!!!!!!!!!! So fuckin a. Here are some pics from this friday night.
( Betty Crocker Punk Rocker )
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[16 Nov 2005|05:46pm] |
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Punk Rock. Well what the fuck? What did Tommy Dean do with his long weekend??? Ill tell you!!!!! Thursday afta school i went down to the A-town skate park and chilled with all those kids...good fuckin times. That night caroline came ova and we watched Shakespeare in love...not a bad movie...im a pussy. Saturday it was back to A-town chillin with Ryan and Shane and Craig and Sean and otha people. Oh yeah we went out to breakfast...whoohoo!!! Saturday night plans got changed real fast on me and everything sucked soooo i sat alone talkin to katie...who by the way is one of my best friends eva!!! Anyways...fuck the police. Sunday went to a shitty show but cold beer aka peanut aka caroline aka loopy was there...and it was fuckin awesome to hang out with her for that time...i got maaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddd looooooovvvvvveeeeeee for that chick...so fuck the police. Ummm school is aite...fat chicks...fupa...poop...punk rock...whoohoo. So that's my life...come to Jarrods on the 26th...or ill kill you. OH yeah improv show this friday...and mad peeps are goin. So be fuckin cool and go...only like five bucks to get in and u get to see my pretty face do funny shit. Umm and afta join me and the rest of improv kids at Friendly's afta the show...as well as my lovely girlfriend...so fuck the police. -Keep the Faith
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[06 Nov 2005|06:07pm] |
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So another fuckin weekend...it was aite. Working 3-9 kinda sucked but afta that i went ova kiley's and chilled with him, paul, jake,jill, and connor. The next morning i got to the school a little around nine and helped build the set for the play...caroline was there of course and she looked absolutley stunning with her saftey goggles on. I stayed at there until 11:30 and i had to be at work by 12. Luckily the owner was there for most of the time and he lectured me and told me how much the store sucks and accused me of shit i didnt do. Luckily that night shane and ryan came ova. Then lata on craig and chris came ova...it was a good fuckin time, and they all slept ova...it was a good fuckin time. Today i played lacrosse...that was cool. This week is a four day week!!! Fuckin a bitches. -Keep the faith
Caroline wanted me to put this in the live journal...so there ya go.
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[02 Nov 2005|06:28pm] |
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Hey kids...i hope u all had a wondeful halloween...i sure as hell did!!! I went to caroline's house and we handed out candy to kids...and did face painting...and had a sweet candy fight.
Me with the carved apple caroline made...pretty fuckin sweet
Me and Caroline with our face paint that we did to eachother.
My b-day is soon...November third bitches...im gonna be 17...that's fucked up. -Keep the faith
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[21 Oct 2005|11:28pm] |
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"Seeya later fuck face seeya later fuck face seeya in the funny pages fuck you." As the Queers once boldly put it. So what's up kids??? Well as you all know...fat chicks. Today was rad...i stayed after with caroline and watched Tori and Laura's volleyball game...Tori kicks ass at volleyball and for the 2 minutes she played...let me tell you she was awesome. Jus had an improv show and it kicked ass...afta that went to Friendly's with Caroline and some otha people...that was cool. Tonight I could of done two things...done the fun but less honest thing or done the right thing...and i did the right thing...so fuckin a. Caitlin Hubbard totally fuckin came back to visit and it was awesome to see her. She is still a hippie and Ohio hasn't changed that chick one bit. So...parent teacher confrences sucked mad cock...but what can ya do? My mom was embarrassed that i told my physics class i wear spandex underwear and put hot baby oil all over myself...but what can ya do? So you got your good and your bad. -Keep the faith
So me and Caroline are at Friendly's and I tell her how much i hate one of her friends that is about 15 feet at another table and she tells me that I shouldnt hate her or something. I tell her I wish shane was there because he would punch that girl in the face. So she wrote on a napkin...what would shane do?
Me and the chick jus chillin
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[16 Oct 2005|06:03pm] |
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Hey kids...punk rock. Shits fuckin dank. Awesome field trip wednesday...theatre is cool fuck you. Friday i got to chill with my lovely girlfriend...it was...fuckin immaculate. She asked me when i was gonna shave my head. Now many of u do not no this but almost every single girlfriend that has been in my existance...or any chick in general that ive eva been with has condemned me shaving my head. Now little sweet caroline wants me to shave my head!!! What a cool fucking girlfriend!!! Anyways saturday i chilled with shane and ryan. I then went to a show at Jarrods cuz some punk bands were playing...it was aite...kinda sucks goin alone. That night i had a plethora of fun...oh boy...but we shall not talk about it. Hmmm today i feel like shit...and i have to poop...and eat. -Keep the faith
Caroline painted me this sweet hippo at some pottery place...we named him Larry.
Me giving caroline a kiss on the train when we were on our field trip as she takes the picture
Oh shit son i almost forgot it was kev and jill's 1 year anniversary this saturday!!! Fuckin sweet!!!
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